After a very heavy spiritual battle in 2010 for the freedom of Aldo’s spirit, Holy Spirit revealed to us that bloodline curses were at the root of the problem. Aldo’s grandpa (my dad) was caught up in racism. Racism is in effect hatred which is the root of many open ‘doors’ through which the enemy can legally attack us. Not only did I fight for my child’s freedom from the claws of the enemy, but also for my Dad’s. Who of us would want to stand before God’s throne one day and say, “I told the world that Jesus is alive, but my Dad is eternally lost”? That is why Holy Spirit taught me to place myself in my Dad’s shoes and to repent and intercede for him and for the sins and iniquities of the generations before him. After that I kept on blessing him every day – that was all Holy Spirit asked me to do. There is so much power in blessing! Interceding for someone has to do with the remittance of sin and iniquity – it does not mean that the person who partook in sin doesn’t have to come to repentance themselves. Through your intercession and repentant prayers on their behalf the Holy Spirit is able to lift the stronghold from that person and He can then start to work in the heart of that person more intensely.
And so I kept on fighting in the spirit throughout 2010 for my father by interceding and praying for him and blessing him. Always remember that our warfare is in the heavens, so don’t try to win your battle by physically fighting with your tongue, with harsh words and human arguments as your weapons – that is exactly how the enemy wants to destroy us! I just kept on loving him, and kept on fighting for him in the spirit and that brought the victory.
Last Friday, at our family Shabbat dinner, Tinus and Aldo baptized Grandpa. My dad came to repentance and he went through so much deliverance during the last year. Holy Spirit convinced him to get baptized, and at an age of 77 he was baptized in our pool last Friday. ‘Retah’ didn’t once tell him, “Dad, you have to get baptized!” No, I believe this is something that only Holy Spirit can personally reveal to someone’s heart. Don’t be convinced by people – be convinced by the Spirit of the Living God! Because only then will it be a rhema word from God… it will be living and eternal. My dad’s baptism was a feast for all of us, and Aldo wrote afterwards that: “The thorn that we have been fighting against is gone now, Mom. All of us are free now!” God is so faithful! And His timing is perfect.
Today I know the responsibility we as parents carry towards our children to walk in the light and the truth of Christ. So often we open the doors through which the enemy can attack our children unknowingly. To explain it in a very simplistic way – it is like two gatekeepers standing guard at the doors of our soul. One gatekeeper is of demonic influence who feeds on the seeds of death, and the other gatekeeper is of divine influence who feeds on the seeds of life. Whatever we choose to feed will grow strong and take over control of that gateway. For instance, when we feed the demons by indulging in lustful thoughts, that demonic influence will grow strong because of all the death we are feeding it through our choices. Ultimately that demon (who took control of the gateway) will fling the doors wide open for all kinds of demonic strongholds to be formed, like addiction to pornography, masturbation, adultery…. and before you know it your entire family is in shambles, you are on your way to a divorce and the kids suffer from all kinds of disorders and illnesses because the enemy has taken control of the gate. The ripple effect touches so much more than just the single seed of death we indulged in. This is also the effective working of the law of multiplication: whatever you sow you shall reap – but if you sow one seed, you won’t only reap one fruit, you will reap a harvest! Thank God for His mercy and provision, because this goes both ways… if you indulge in seeds of life, you will reap a harvest of LIFE!
And this goes for all the doors of our soul. Self-centredness invites in pride, jealousy, pity, covetousness, etc. Unforgiveness invites hatred, bitterness, fear, anxiety… and all of these roots lead to death - death in the spirit, death in the soul, and ultimately death in the body.
“In the same way, count yourselves dead to sin but alive to God in Christ Jesus. Therefore do not let sin reign in your mortal body so that you obey its evil desires. Do not offer any part of yourself to sin as an instrument of wickedness, but rather offer yourselves to God as those who have been brought from death to life; and offer every part of yourself to him as an instrument of righteousness. For sin shall no longer be your master, because you are not under the law, but under grace.” (Rom. 6:11-14).
“But now that you have been set free from sin and have become slaves of God, the benefit you reap leads to holiness, and the result is eternal life. 23 For the wages of sin is death, but the gift of God is eternal life in[b] Christ Jesus our Lord” (Rom. 6:22-23).
Tinus and I are going to attend a two day seminar by Pastor Henry Wright author of The More Excellent Way, this week. He will be sharing with us about the spiritual roots of diseases. I am so excited in my spirit about this, because I know that I know that it is true! Aldo is free today from a shunt in his brain, epilepsy, and all the other medical terms that were spoken over him because of this. People today are so bound by demonic influences and they live in these ‘drains from hell’ and shrug their shoulders and accept their circumstances, while Jesus paid the full price for our freedom and healing!
In Matthew 9 vs 29 Jesus says: “Let it be to you according to your faith,” and it was so. What do you believe? Do you believe that a good outcome for your situation is possible for God?
But know this, the road to healing and deliverance starts with repentance and remissions of sin. That is probably the hardest part for most people – to admit that you have a problem in the spirit. Today I stand amazed at how Abba opened up my spiritual eyes so that I can now see past the natural to recognize the root of the problem. Even in marriages I can recognize the “spiritual root” of why the marriage is in the state that it is in. Most times these spiritual roots grow out of soul-wounds that haven’t been brought to the light of Christ and dealt with there. The blood of Jesus Christ washes away our sins, but the glory light of Jesus brings healing to our soul wounds – of this my family and I can boldly testify!
There is a life of abundance waiting for all of us in the Promised Land, and this Promised Land is Jesus Christ. It is just so heartbreaking to see how our flesh is constantly looking for an alternative to Christ and Him alone. In Him is true kingdom life and He wants to manifest His kingdom in our lives because we become one with Him.
In this hour we are living in I can see how quickly so many ‘alternatives’ can slip in. Don’t get lost out there, seek Christ and Him alone and let Holy Spirit lead your steps. Just stay in Christ! He is the Way, and the Truth and the Life. He is everything you need. No ministry, or special translation Bible, or church, or doctrine can pave your way to heaven… Christ and Him alone is The Way to the Father. Not even opinions about baptism, or the testimonies of mere men, or even signs and wonders can give you what only Christ has – eternal life. It is all about your love relationship with Him. Through this love relationship you can live your life in the Kingdom of God here and now – you can live in the Promised Land because Christ is our Promised Land. Please, don’t look around at others or to yourself for the answers – only look at Christ. Just walk your path with Him step by step with the Holy Spirit leading the way. Jesus will meet you where you are, even if it is a bad place at the moment. I know those places, and Jesus has come to save me out of them every time when I called to him WITH MY ENTIRE BEING. Not a new method, or teaching – only Christ is the way to a life of abundance for you and I.
I know how many times I looked at Aldo when he was so sick and softly whispered to myself, “I wonder if God will do it for me?” In Mark 9 verse 23 Jesus answered the father who brought his sick son to Him, and He said, “If you can?... Everything is possible for one who believes!”Yes, Jesus did it for me – a person just like you with many faults and shortcomings – and He will do it for you too! Just take hold of Him with everything inside of you!
When Aldo came back from heaven, he started writing about all the things that Holy Spirit taught him. In the beginning this was so strange to me, but everything he wrote was according to Scripture. With every step Wisdom has led us accurately and safely on this road to healing and freedom. Aldo will be going with us to Malaysia and Singapore in March, and when the two of us minister together people see and experience the working of the Spirit.
All that God has given us at the moment is his writings where Wisdom is his pen, and he only writes what Wisdom tells him to write. The few other things he reveals are in our daily conversations with him. It is truly a miracle of God to experience this every day. Aldo told me the other day, “Mom, why are you crying so much at Jesus’ feet because of me – don’t you know that I am in my perfect destiny?” That made me wonder if I was crying because of the world out there who expects Aldo to be further along than he is now, or if I was crying about us as human beings who are so far away from Him that we can’t see God’s hand and His plan in a young man like Aldo?
“For the foolishness of God is wiser than human wisdom, and the weakness of God is stronger than human strength.
Brothers and sisters, think of what you were when you were called. Not many of you were wise by human standards; not many were influential; not many were of noble birth. But God chose the foolish things of the world to shame the wise; God chose the weak things of the world to shame the strong.
God chose the lowly things of this world and the despised things—and the things that are not—to nullify the things that are, so that no one may boast before him. It is because of him that you are in Christ Jesus, who has become for us wisdom from God—that is, our righteousness, holiness and redemption. Therefore, as it is written: “Let the one who boasts boast in the Lord” (1 Cor. 1:25-31)
On Sunday our entire family went riding on the mountain bikes again. Believe me when I say I am completely unfit, so the hills that Aldo and Tinus take on with their tandem bike is still very tough for me! But I refuse to give up and climb off the bike before I reach the top of the hill – for I have strength for all things through Christ Jesus who strengthens me! During our ride Aldo started coughing because of the flem in his throat. Tinus and him stopped to rest and clear his throat and to drink some water. By watching this incident Holy Spirit talked to me and said, “So it is in life too, Retah. When someone gets under pressure and the flem comes out, then you have to deal with it. Get it out by repenting! Then drink some water and go on again. Jesus is the water of life.”
While I was pushing hard to get myself up the hill, I knew I couldn’t stop for water then – every muscle in my body was concentrated on the task of getting me to the top. Once I received the prize of getting to the top, I had more than enough time to drink water and rest. The way down the hill went much faster and easier than getting to the top. Holy Spirit spoke to me again about this, “This too is part of life, Retah. Your every breath is the grace that I give you. Sometimes it feels as if there isn’t a lot of grace, but once you come out on top you realize that My grace was there all the while. My grace for you is always enough. It is your life supply.”
Life is a series of hills that you need to complete - up and down. I know that my King has always met me at the top of the mountain, but also down in the valley. I am never, never, never, alone – for God has said, “Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you” (Heb. 13:5).
While I was enjoying the wind in my face as I rode on the bicycle I spoke to the Lord about the difficult week I had. “Jesus, this past week was a difficult one. I had lots of struggles in the spirit.” Immediately the Lord answered me, “Retah, usually it is only difficult when the ‘selfish-I’ stands up in you, because it is the ‘I’ in you that feels hurt and rejected.”
After realizing this I immediately repented of the self-centredness that Holy Spirit revealed to me, because God did not send Aldo back for Tinus and I, but He sent him back to teach His children about the spiritual realm and that Jesus is truly alive.
I spoke to the Lord again and told Him how challenging it is for me because Aldo knows all these things in the spirit… “Retah, what is so strange about that?” I heard Him answer me. “Do you think that I don’t already know everything there is to know about you? Every word, every thought, every heartbeat… why is it so difficult for you to have someone around you who walks in the spirit as much as Aldo? Are you afraid of being confronted with the truth? Don’t you want to walk in the light every second of every day? Isn’t that how you would want to live anyway?”
It is challenging for me to hear through Aldo’s letters that Wisdom shows Aldo how I cry before God’s throne. Aldo wrote the other day after I danced in front of the throne for Jesus last Friday, “Mom, it was so beautiful when you danced before Jesus last night.” Or, “Mom, thank you that you keep on blessing me before the throne.” But then there is also the admonishing letters, “Mom, please keep your thoughts pure...”, “Mom, you need to answer that lady that sent that judgemental e-mail with Jesus’ love and don’t answer her out of your flesh. She just doesn’t know and understand God yet. Wisdom asks if you will please pray for her. She has a lot of pain in her life and that is why she said those things to you.” He went on to write down the pain she has in her life so I could know what to pray for.
When I read letters such as these I go down on my knees being so humbled by what he wrote. And I become very quiet… because I can see God moving on a much deeper dimension than where our flesh lives. But I also see the simplicity of the Kingdom of God. If it is possible for a child like Aldo to walk in it 24/7, what is wrong with you and I?
Do you understand that I can’t even dare to return judgement with judgement? All I can do is to fall on my face before God and ask Him for more grace, because it is a walk of faith that can only be understood by your spirit. If you look at my family through your eyes in the flesh, I am sure you will be able to find lots of things to say about us – and believe me I understand this – and that is why this mother’s-heart of mine wants to keep Aldo away from the public, but I have to be obedient to God and do what ‘Wisdom’ leads me to do.
“Abba Father, in the name of Yeshua I ask for Your Spirit to flow through us and to take us into truth. Help us to see past appearances, for the truth of what we see according to the flesh is not life – but truth that is seen with our spirit eyes is ‘zoe’ life – true life. Please teach us Abba Father! And thank You for this road of dying to self.
Peace and love.
Retah and family.